Revelation of His Love

I sat in Moldova a year ago to this month, and breathed a sigh of sweet relief. I was part of a society that I didn’t know I was on the outside of, until I was on the inside. I finally felt and understood what I had only claimed to know for the ten years prior. I got it. I had a revelation of my Father’s love for me. It is one thing to know it, and another to feel it and live out the implications of it. I was loved by my creator. I was free. I could be me without fear of man because I knew in whom my identity came. I used my voice more and was much less afraid to step out.

I thought it was so wild how I could follow Christ for so long and yet never have a revelation of His love in such a transforming way. I had tasted bits and pieces of freedom, but not in a way that His love swept in and crushed things holding me back to the point that they had absolutely no hold. I had walls up that allowed me to view His love from a distance but never allow it penetrate my heart and captivate my soul. As His love transformed me to look more like Him, I began to look more like myself.

In the past, I was unsettled sitting alone in silence because my lack of freedom led to anxiety. As I continue to walk further with the Lord, I am learning to enjoy hanging out with myself. I am learning to enjoy my own company. I am learning to appreciate the creation that He made and the mind and gifts He's given me. I am becoming more and more settled in my identity and I love to just get away with the Lord and hang out alone.


I sat on the beach here in Spain by myself a year later and had a similar revelation to the one in Moldova. It was a revelation of His love that continues to bring insane amounts of transformation and freedom. I used to be afraid to do things because addiction ran throughout my family and I didn't want to get caught in it. I used to make decisions sometimes out of rebellion, or would fear the judgement and condemnation of others based on certain decisions. Many of these fears came from religion and were held there by lies. I am realizing that rather than making decisions based on those same things, I am now making them based on the revelation of His love. Rebellion isn't an issue because I know my Father's love for me. I don't fear what other people think of my decisions because they are based on His love. Addiction is no longer in my blood line, because I have a revelation of His love. I am free of these things and so much more. 

I thought for so long I knew what freedom felt like. I thought I knew what His love was. I am realizing that it is one thing to know it in my head, and a whole other thing to feel it in my spirit and allow it to transform the corrupted areas of my life. I am continuing to come to know what freedom feels like, and how it releases you to truly live abundantly. I am seeing how the more free I live, the more I give others permission to live free as well.

His love is real. It is captivating. It releases you to live free.

Are you allowing His love to transform you?